@Rctec thank you for your wisdom and perspective. When they announced me as the winner and then I saw the feedback start coming in, I told myself that this is going to be an incredible opportunity to develop thick skin. And to act with class no matter what people say. Because if I am going to be a successful composer, dealing with criticism from directors who have trusted me with their project, then sucking it up and getting back to work, it is going to be a LOT tougher than what some people on the internet say.
Here's a photo of me today, back at my day job but so wanting to be on my computer composing music. You might notice the shirt that I bought on your tour in LA. A tour that my wife, not a film music fan, said was the best concert she's ever been to. That's because your music connects to so many people on an emotional level and appeals to not just musicians. What better thing to aspire to?
My whole life I've been afraid to take risks with my music. Avoiding putting my music out there for fear it's not good enough. At 43 years old, I kick myself that I didn't follow through with music when I was scoring a student film 25 years ago. Ironic then that I won this contest by what else: Taking a risk with a take on this scene that was different. As much as I would love to try doing a version of Dark Knight, guess what - you've already done that, you invented it and it's time for us to try something new.
As a longtime fan who, I'm not ashamed to admit, gets a little teary-eyed every time he listens to Beyond Rangoon, just reading your comment here is one of the greatest things that's ever happened to me. Thank you HZ.
David
Hey
@David Kudell !! I went to your facebook page minutes after the announcement to like your post.
As soon as I heard your "level up" on the gun reload I knew you had to win! It just put a huge smile in my face.
If my father was alive he would have loved it too, he was my first gaming partner and film enthusiast.
About negativity... most of it is probably just envy in disguise, ignore it.
When I was 26 and made by debut into scores everyone I spoke to told me:
"You won't be able to score anything significant living in Portugal and, even worse, in Madeira Island."
I had some really good classical training but that was it (clearly not enough)... I had no one around to help me into mixing, scoring etc. - island... - My school was playing games every day and seeing movies every weekend since tender age.
At some point I needed help - and boy it was hard to get since everyone kept everything for themselves. I was told all my life I was always "too kind" of a person to be successful.
Strangely, the only person that kindly helped me without hesitation back in 2007 (and he went deep into it...) was Thomas Bergersen before he started in Two Steps from Hell.
I couldn't believe it, the best one in midi mockups was also the kindest.
That moment boosted my morale and I gave back as much as a could to Thomas and to others. If everyone I helped helps another the world is a happier place (isn't that why we are here in this globe in the first place?).
This moment, when I was 26, just reminded me I was actually in the right path and being (genuinely) kind is also one of the keys to success. Also being kind makes you more open to critique. Negative people usually take criticism as something personal... (I know tons of people that come to me looking for help and are like this... and get angry if I don't praise their work.)
Seeing
@Rctec take his time to come here just proves to me, once again, kindness/positivity/open mindness IS the right path.
My son is 7 today so I can't be much longer than this (haha) but thank you for making me smile with your entry.
Keep working and don't let any lost battle defeat you... ever!
Pedro