Thank you for sharing.
This is something that is hard for me to explain. At least now, but I'll try my best.
When it seems that you are passionate and pursuing something of your own - instead of trying to please the big masses or riding on top of the waves of current trends, I would suggest a more esoteric approach....
When I think about masters in some craft, to me they are individuals who have a vision, who know what they want and are capable to execute it. Individuals who "can see clearly" and know their craft.
I am a very sensitive person, and it is often easy for me in an art piece to sense the mood or mental state of the person who has created it. The mental (and spiritual) state from where one creates, is often overlooked and seen irrelevant, but to me they are essential parts in artistic creation, and in my opinion truly affect the end result in many ways.
Nowadays there is a lot of "empty" art, where I can find nothing else than the physical or aural form/expression, but the ones that rise above the else are something much more. We live in a busy world, where most of the people lack the opportunity, or will, to stop and create a deeper connection with life and themselves, and this can be seen or heard in what they do and create. In contrary, there is art that shines, and this "much more" is mostly something that is hard for our mind to comprehend, because it is abstract, does not have a solid form and is harder for our mind to explain, label or analyze. Something we sense, but rarely can grasp. Like sand that falls through our fingers, when we try to get a hold of it.
To me an artistic creation is a little bit like an iceberg - the audible or visible form is the top part that can be seen, but the rest of it can not be seen or heard (=immaterial), and if one lacks this deeper connection, usually does the art the same person is creating. There are rare exceptions, individuals who can channel marvelous things and not be conscious about what they are doing, but I would say that it is a minority.
I am writing this, because I feel that the most important thing for you now, could be to find a way to connect to the stillness and peace inside of you - the place where you can see clearly. If one is restless, or lacks the deeper connection with him-/herself and life in general, it does not provide the deeper understanding of what he/she is doing. By understanding I do not necessarily mean analyzing, but knowing deep in your heart how things should be in your composition. In my experience working from this kind of state really can make the end result shine, and the one creating has a chance to in a way become one with the creation, and know how things should be done.
If it resonates even a bit, then please think of this and what could be the methods for you to connect on a more deep level with your own being and to you artistic creation. Could it be being in nature, meditating or something else?
I listened to your piece twice and the first time it was many times quite difficult to find the rope that was there to guide me through the story of your creation. Later half was easier and when I listened the piece for a second time in a row it was easier to flow with. I still think that a more clear form could be a good thing, unless you inside of you know (in stillness and peace of mind) that the things are the way they are supposed to.
As I've stated before; to me you are very talented and personally I like many of your compositional choices and ideas.
It would be also interesting to hear about the tools you have used - if it is not a secret.