Unless you're 10 years old, no one is coming to push you to do the things you know you need to do, in order to have the life you want. You will NEVER feel like doing them, so YOU have to push yourself to do those things - every day.
You can not learn how to write by reading, listening or watching anything. You have to APPLY what you absorb. So study every day, but most importantly, WRITE every day. Even when you don't "feel like it".
All the rest: Exercise as if your life depended on it (it does). Sleep enough as if your life depended on it (it does). Keep a journal of everything you WANT to do, and what you are ACTUALLY doing - every morning write down the most important thing you need to do today FOR YOU (not anybody else).
If you do all this, every day, without fail, over time, things WILL come together. Only took me 40 years to figure this shit out.